Fuck Shakespeare

Pretending and acting go hand in hand. When I was younger I use to pretend all the time. Pretending was fun and exciting when I was young, I could pretend to be Superman, pretend I was a scavenger, pretend I was a Power Ranger… pretending was awesome. Then as I grew older I found out that I could rename what I was doing and follow some guidlines and call it acting. I could act like a person on a bus stop, act like Lazar Wolfe in Fiddler on the Roof, even act like King Creon in Antigone. But I gave up the fun and games to become a computer specialist.

I don’t regret giving up the dreams of my youth, I regret what it has cost me. It cost me my passion for acting. Now when I am pretending or acting, I hate it. I have to act like I care about people’s repetitive problems, I have to act like I am not mad about stuff, I have to act like I am not an asshole. I have to pretend that I’m a nice guy, pretend that I have everything under control, pretend that I am excellent in everything I do.

Now I hate acting. I hate pretending. I miss being on stage, but not on the stage of life and the public eye. Only my circle knows me, and I am going to possibly be making that circle smaller. If there is one thing I won’t tolerate it is being on stage in front of the few people I trust. I think at this point I deserve to be at least somewhat true to me. Life is not a stage, and I am not a player for all the world to see. Fuck Shakespeare.

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roxywtf said: You used to act? I say try an improv class. It’ll help you socially & gives you stories to tell when you’re out in the business world. Plus, it can scratch an itch w/o bringing you down.
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Apr
05