Yeah, I think that all in all, this year was just a major scenario of disappointments for me. Concerning love, money, and tech this year just wasn’t what I wanted it to be. I’m so glad 2010 is over, I’m definitely ready for a new year. Like I am sick to death of this year. I just feel like I need a fresh start.

I think the biggest failure is that I didn’t graduate this year. I totally thought 2010 was going to be the year I saw my bachelor degree… that totally didn’t happen and I’ve been very bummed about it. I have no one to blame but myself though. I definitely won’t be making that mistake again. I am going to graduate this year NO MATTER WHAT! I can become a fucking paraplegic but I am still going to graduate. It’s a must.

I also didn’t reconnect with as many people as I had hoped. I thought I’d be better about managing friends and family, I don’t think I did either of those things well at all. Alas, what can I do? I have a whole new year to fix this problem and hopefully settle time down to keep everyone in the loop about what is going on with me.

I’m also kind of upset that I wasn’t able to propose this year. Really thought this was the right time, turned out I was wrong. But I mean I guess it’s a good thing I didn’t make a fool of myself, I would’ve been way more hurt than I am already. Sucks how somethings will never turn out how you want them to no matter how hard you try. 

I think I am going to take this year and really work on being more selfish. Like I don’t think I am going to do anything I don’t feel like doing this year. If I’m not down with an idea, I think I am going to avoid it like the plague. Like if I rather stay in the house, then I am definitely staying in the house. If I feel like going out, then I am going out. We go through too much bull shit just to keep folks happy. I’m done with everyone else being happy. Hope everyone has a great year in 2011, hopefully you find happiness without blowing my buzz, cause this year I’m all about finding my natural high.